The Clown Prince

I laugh as i lay on the ground brutally battered,

abhorred and abandoned by these "civilized people".

This laughter though asphyxiates my soul,

eventually snapping my threshold to endure.

I laugh for their hypocrisy is hurtful,

even more agonizing is their apathy.

laughing till my throat takes no more,

and yet i laugh and laugh some more.

I laugh as i see myself in the mirror,

for others its make up for me its my identity,

thus they see with prejudice i see with pride,

I laugh as i feel the scars,

running till the cheeks from my lips,

it gives me a permanent smile of my own,

prohibiting all other emotions without my consent

how did i get them, i often wonder,

for every dream seems a reality, it's hard to differ.

I laugh as I vow to mock at this world,

Nothing personal, just to amuse myself,

will crack few jokes situational not conventional,

laughing louder than used to, seeing them fall deeper.

I laugh as I see them make plans,

such fools they are to think they'll work,

that's where i step in to reveal one forgotten truth,

that life, is never devoid of surprise or disturbances

I laugh as i see a dark knight,

I laugh for how i fond i am of him,

He is the symbol of hope

and i am the product of  despair

I envy his unbreakable resolve,

i admire it too and i also abhor it,

For to leave this world i secretly wish,

to fulfill this wish i make him push,

to give up his morals for once but there's a problem,

it will begin a chain of ironic comedy,

and boy that makes me laugh so hard.

I laugh as i see the fragility of order,

rusted by hypocrisy, apathy and obsessive planning,

it's actually the ying to my yang, that's chaos,

of which i declare i am a mere agent.

I laugh at the thought ironic comedies,

of how this world that has abandoned me,

and how I so wish to return the favor,

but that's where the funny part crackles me up..

I find myself unable to do it,

for the people in this world are my puppets,

their ways and rules are my jokes,

making it my best source of entertainment,

and that's how this joker amuses himself.